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jacksgap:

Headed off for travels. Shooting video on a GH4 and stills on an old FM2. Both using 30 year old Nikon prime lenses. #AlphaPro #Letsgosomewhere

This is the last place I know I can post and not have to worry about the bullshit of a personal brand, at least for now. 

Now that I am old enough to legally hold my own alcohol, it’s dawned on me that I should focus on bearing the responsibility of carrying myself. The question, that goes unanswered, is how I should go about doing that.

Sometimes I feel like I’m being authentic and then I doubt myself. Is my latest outlandish behavior really who I am or who I think people would like to hang around? I should be specific. My latest behavior has included talking about my nightlife style as if I’m this drunk ass dude that doesn’t give a shit. Or what about acting like an arrogant asshole.

I’ve been doing this because my mindset is that there’s always going to be someone else out there that is more talented, successful, experienced, and better-looking than I am. So I might as well exercise the fact that I am also talented, unique, cool, and mildly hilarious because otherwise, people would look right past me and not care about me.

It’s funny. I picked the username boywhofell when I was seventeen and foolishly in what I thought was love. I’m over all that now, yet the name still rings true.

I am in an eternal fall from grace.

So is this blog about me getting back up? Or will I only retreat back to here the next time I fall?

Good thing I have good cheekbones. 

fyeahcooldormrooms:

DIY Clothes Hanger Chandelier
azumikazami:

Beautiful albino Asian boy
2002bape:

YOOOO SO LOOK DA FIRST TIME I EVER GOT ON DIS RIDE I WAS WITH A WHITE FAMILY AND U KNOW WHITE FOLKS CRAZY SO DEY DONT FEAR ROLLER COASTERS OR DEATH IN GENERAL. AFTER ABOUT 10 MINUTES OF TELLIN DEM DAT I DIDNT WANNA GET ON I FINALLY SAID YES CUZ I AINT NEVER BEEN NO BITCH AND I DIDNT PLAN ON STARTING THAT DAY. WHEN DA ENGINEER SAID “PLS LEAN BACK AND KEEP THE BACK OF UR HEAD PRESSED AGAINST YOUR SEAT” AND I SAW EVERYBODY STICK DA BACK OF THEIR HEADS TO THE CHAIR I KNEW DAT I MADE DA WORST DECISION OF MY LIFE CUZ I EVEN SAW SOME BLACK FOLKS LISTEN AND U KNOW DAT WHEN BLACK PEOPLE LISTEN A WHITE LADY’S ADVICE , ITS DA REAL DEAL. SO MY FIRST MISTAKE WAS REFUSING TO PRESS MY HEAD AGAINST THE SEAT… THE RIDE TAKES OFF AND MY DOME SLAMS AGAINST THE CHAIR WHILE MY NECK SNAPPED… UNCONSCIOUS INSTANTLY.. WHEN I AWOKE FROM MY 3 SECOND SLUMBER WE HAD REACHED DA VERY TOP OF THE RIDE WHERE THE RIDE MAKES A QUICK PAUSE… WHEN THE RIDE MADE THAT PAUSE I OPENED MY EYES CAUSE I THOUGHT THE RIDE WAS OVER AND WE ALL MADE IT SAFELY. BOY WAS I WRONG… I OPENED MY EYES AND DA ONLY THING I SAW WAS A 300 FOOT DROP STRAIGHT TO DA GROUND SO I SAID “GOD YOU CANT LET ME DIE LIKE DIS”. I THINK I SUFFERED A HEART CONTUSION CUZ MY HEART JUST COMPLETELY STOPPED BEATING… AND THAN THE RIDE TAKES OFF AGAIN… WE MAKE THE 300 FOOT DROP AND I SCREAM MY LUNGS OUT AS IM SCARED TO DEATH BECAUSE DA ONLY TIME A HUMAN SHOULD BE DAT HIGH IN DA AIR IS WHEN THEIR SPIRIT IS BEING SUCKED INTO HEAVEN BY DA GRACE OF GOD.. SO WE SAFELY MAKE IT TO DA END OF DA RIDE AND WHEN WE GET OFF I STUMBLE OUT OF THE SEAT CUZ MY LEGS WENT NUMB AND ALL THE AIR WAS SUCKED OUT OF MY BODY SO I COULDNT TALK EITHER.. DA FIRST THING THESE CRAZY MOTHERFUCKERS TELL ME IS “HEY MAN LETS DO THAT AGAIN THAT WAS WICKED”. I LOOKED AT DEM AND I REALIZED DAT DIS WHITE KID DAT I BEFRIENDED WAS ACTUALLY SATAN. I NO LONGER HAVE ANY WHITE FRIENDS.

i hope this post stays in my life forever